my name is chris. ill be 18 years old in a month. i was born in a suburb of philadelphia, went to a grade school that proved the direct cause of this crazy depression iv been experiencing for the past seven months. now im in my last year of high school. it's horrifying. my parents divorced recently. i feel like so much of my willpower in the beginning of this fucked up depression has been drained, and now im at the point of accepting anti depressant pills or anything at all, something i never, ever considered doing up till recently. i always felt like i was so much better than that, to actually take pills for depression. well now im feeling desperate. thing is iv been in this insane depression for over seven months now, its affected every damn relationship in my life. family, friends, iv been feeling like i just cant talk to them anymore. one of, if not the worst, feelings i have ever experienced as of yet. i haven't had much true interaction with people in the last seven months. so, now i feel like i can finally get myself up and take those pills. only, now i feel i cant ask for them. for fear of what they will think of me. well, theres too many more things that are screwed up with me right now but i guess that description will do.