I was diagnosed Bipolar, OCD (which is comorbid), and Generalized Anxiety Disorder NOS all at sixteen, after a couple stays in a state hospital. I had been going to counseling with a doctor who said he THOUGHT I was bipolar. I had been on some medication for so I knew, at sixteen, what it felt like to be zombied out and have people tell you that there's nothing wrong with you....blah blah blah, etc etc. I was fifteen when i quit seeing him.
WITH THAT SAID!
Since my (rather obvious) bipolar I diagnosis at sixteen, I've been given the right medication (for me it turned out to be Lithium after trying the likes of Abilify, Depakote, and what not) I have started to try to do the advocate thing and talk to people at my high school about it.
I'm only seventeen now...so I still have A HELL OF A TIME dealing not only with the bipolar, but with the Lithium that I absolutely love but absolutely hate. (you know what I mean).
More over, in making a couple of speeches I had several kids come up to me (in an auditorium of 50 or 60...about 2/3 of the kids) saying I have bipolar it sucks man I flip out on people...one second I'm happy the next I'm sad....
I don't judge though...this kid whom I've went to school with since I was 12...
"Really? I never knew! When were you diagnosed? What kind of meds are you on?"
"I've never been diagnosed...but like...everyone says I am. and I don't take medication because I just handle it, you know? But I still flip out..."
Alright...it's a possibility (however, an undeniably slim one)....that these kids, indeed, had bipolar....all thirty something of them....haha
But I couldn't help but think that they, somehow, thought it was cool. It's really starting to become the trendy thing.
That makes me sick to my stomach.
I wish there was something to do to these kids, besides simply saying, "LOOK YOU HAVE NO CLUE HOW IT IS AND IF I DIDN'T HAVE A HEART I WOULD WISH IT ON YOU....YOU IGNORANT LITTLE TWIT."
but...that's not right, of course.
Any thoughts?
sincerely,
Wes Byers
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